I have been crying for the last three quarters of an hour…
Bruce Lee (via purplebuddhaproject)
I will not lose.
It’s my heart… if I don’t show it… what’s the point?
Jani I know you cried yourself to sleep last night, I know you only slept a few hours and then braved the dawn to talk to him. I know your heart is hollowed out and hurting.
But please just one more day, love him one more day.
Survive one more day.
I know you are so scared of today, but you dont need to be, work will be just in the morning and in the afternoon you can call him if you feel very bad ok?
It’s okay to be sad, and it’s okay to cry just don’t give up.
Just one more day… please.
Barely slept at all today…
I don’t want to beg for attention anymore.
I don’t want to beg for love anymore.
I don’t want to have to explain why I need to feel connected.
I don’t want to feel ugly for struggling to keep love alive.
Pain is not ugly… struggling is not ugly.
I am unflinching.